hmm..its alrights..i've kinda got used to being alone..
heh girl..like you mentioned in your blog, you're my cousin..aka my friend...aka my angel..hmm..dunnoe if you read about my previous post..think it was quite a long time ago de..kinda related it to yourself?? hahaha..i was talking about you btw...something strucked me to write something lar..or maybe, i didn't have anything to say so i was finding something to blog about?? haha...joking joking..hmm..i was truly typing it from the bottom of my heart..hehe..*cliche...GOSH!! oh yesh..and when did another 'K' pop out?? i thought a 'R' was enough for you to handle..oOps..hehehe..but all the best to you lar..it seems you're quite hot in demand huh?? lol..
& yeaps..i went out alone last night...like went to walk for awhile then i came home...thought about alot of things since i was alone..which i feel is really "unhealthy" for me...GOSH! I should just forget everything lar...
small dawn told me that she cried while sending him to camp..WAH! huge sacrifice..but that only goes to show how much you love him lar..haha..don't blame yourself for crying cuz what you felt when you left him was exactly human..hehehe..(:
she msged me..told me that she broke up with him..I'm not sure how to go about comforting her..its like..he's been waiting for so long..and they finally ended up together..but because something happened that she made the decision to request that break..she told me it was just temporary...and I'm sure he understands too...afterall, i guess his love for her will never cease..BUT BUT BUT..-sigh-..i've tried putting myself in his and her shoes...to try thinking about how they feel about everything thats happening...like breaking up...being saddened by everything..YET, i feel she did the right thing..she broke up with him for the sake of her good friend...thats magnanimous...she broke up with him just to stay by another person's side and comfort him in this time of difficulty...thats something i wouldn't do...& she's saddened more not because of the break up but because of what had happened to the other him...thats really touching...
but i really hope he understands what his gf is thinking...like giving up her relationship with him just for her best friend..the reason behind requesting that break-up..
she's really brave..really matured in her thinking..something i should learn from her...
I know you made the right decision..i know you've thought through it carefully..as long as you think it's the best way to work things out, go ahead with your heart..but i hope your relationship with him would not end just like that..as i already said..he can still be your bf..thats only if he understands how you're feeling towards your best friend..& only if he understands that you have to sacrifice some of your time to be with your best friend rather than him, can he truly be a good bf..I definitely have faith in him and u..(:
I met him again..like am always meeting him everytime i'm at the hospital..hur hur..but thats only because his dad's hospitalised lar..how can he not be there right?? & BEST! now even mum and dad knows i'm kinda crazy over this wonderful guy...hahaha...so i should just stop going to the hospital..lol..
i was lied to again..-sigh-..really wonder how i can believe you over and over again..perhaps i've placed too much trust in you...thought things would change now that everything is different from the past..but it seems the same to me...hmm...but it doesn't bother me that much now..i dunnoe why either...maybe it's died...I died?? hahaha..hmm..dunnoe also lars..i'm sprouting rubbish..hehe..
I WANNA STUDY PSYCHOLOGY!! i wanna know how you're feeling...what you're thinking..I WANT I WANT!! I want to know why people lie...i want to see through them..
i only want the truth...
& you...
aBoUt LoVe..
5:25 PM.
