public apology to leo for not turning up for the choir gathering that day...:( hehe...i promise i'll make it up to you someday....treat you to drink sea water you want?? *jokes..
its...er...29th sep...
fast!!! its soOoOo fast....*scared :'(
I want the book of love and memories exchanged...i want the bottle to be filled with stars of our messages!!!!! i want i want!!!!
aBoUt LoVe..
10:54 AM.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
socio mid terms was manageable..or so i thought..until i heard the answers that my other friends wrote...wOw! did you study melinda?? oh well..there goes my GPA of 3.4..:'( I DID!! come on! how can i sit for a test without studying right?? if prof asks me why i did so badly, i'll just say, i couldn't quite understand what you were teaching..and didn't know how the questions would be phrased..or how questions could be asked..:(
weren't you taught the lesson on integrity?? why is it then that you were copying during the test? come on..you're not 15-16 year old kids who copy during tests...you're a young adult! utter disgrace to the school...please don't tell people that you know me! come on! i wouldn't want a friend who cheats in class..*sHoo!! go away!!!!!!!! outta melinda's life please..
completed my LTB presentation...sat for my socio mid terms...now its more presentations for socio and political science...plus assignments for stats and mid terms for stats which is coming up week after next....then it'll be break!(: wOw! like finallY!!!
aBoUt LoVe..
5:12 PM.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
this is sOoO true...
Your Personality Style Description:
Melinda values close, personal relationships, and she will often put the needs and desires of those who are loyal friends ahead of her own needs. She is an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment.
Melinda will work to avoid conflict and sudden changes in her lifestyle and finds joy in keeping tradition.Neat and orderly, others usually see her as practical. She needs adequate information to make decisions, and she will consider the pros and cons. She may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize her emotions.
Melinda likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and she will follow a logical process to gain successful results.A thoughtful, caring person who likes to be around others, she is one who appreciates relationships. She enjoys being involved in social functions, but does not usually care to be the center of attention.
Melinda seeks balance between personal and social time, and enjoys a quiet evening with a few close friends as a good mix of the two.She prefers to work through problems by analyzing things that worked in the past. She is willing to follow another person's lead if they display adequate ability and if Melinda has confidence in their ability. She is someone who is able to lead, if necessary; but usually prefers to wait and see if another person volunteers first.
wOw..bulls-eye!! gosh!
aBoUt LoVe..
3:19 PM.
all because of m*rc*s we almost quarrelled...gosh! i'm not going to talk about him anymore..can't imagine what will happen if we really break out in *war because of him..that'll be so stupid...hahaha...(: scorpio + taurus huh?? lol..you silly!
met up with doreen yesterday! happy happy happy!!! thats all i can say...its been 4 years since i last met her and she hasn't changed...AT ALL!! hehe..
i'm feeling all so stressed out:( ltb presentation on monday...socio mid terms on tuesday...learning journals due...stats hw due...gosh! *bangs head on wall:(
& we can't even get things done on time..we're having last min meetings online through MSN..and we can't get things settled cuz some people will digress..& wOw! i threw my revision plan just to come online for the meeting only to see 2 people in the discussion..the rest are not online?!?! :( this world is just so unfair mel..accept it.. trying to complete studying here and there you're digressing away...excuse me...its 1.15am in the morning...and if i don't complete my revision when can i find the TIME?!?!?! STOP talking RUBBISH!!
alright..more updates after my mid terms and presentations next week..
all the best for driving my dear angel...don't be too envious about my licence lar...you will get it soon!! you CAN do it de k?? jia you oRh!!(: cya soon!!
aBoUt LoVe..
2:18 AM.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
ooPs...this was what i received after yesterday's auditions...
"Thank you for your participation in Virtuoso'06. After a round of intense audition, we are sad to inform you that your name is not included in the next chapter of the Virtuoso'06 book."
okie...alrights & so you know(: it ain't the money that i'm after but the recording contract as well as the experience...watever the case, its over=)
everything that happened yesterday was soOo wrong! SO WRONG!! oh gosh! *blush..its NOT going to happen again....NEVER EVER!!!
aBoUt LoVe..
8:56 AM.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
i'm still deciding if i should coach..
taking up coaching means less time spent with my family..more time spent with baby..
yet it also means i get to learn in the process of coaching these kids. Its definitely not the money that i'm looking at..but the experience of working with kids and enabling them to fulfil what they want in life and to get them to love themselves for who they are, treasuring the people around them. Its that kind of satisfaction you will gain when you see the kids change within those days when you're with them..
actually, i have my reasons..it would be tough to not be feeling how i will be feeling when i see what i see..confusing?? its not for you to know anyway..but i guess baby will know what i'm talking about. Its not that i wouldn't trust you..but it would be very difficult on our part to be allowing the culture of the coaches to come between us. Thats the main problem thats forcing me to not send that email to her..=( As much as i want to coach, i guess i would have to break this barrier on my own in order to have the courage and faith to send it..
i know you would want me to go experience it myself..i remember the promise we made yesterday..
i'll think about it..i still have a few more days..
he said as long as i get a GPA of 3.4 this year and pass that optional stats waiver test, i'll be egligible for something that i want really badly! oh gosh! i'm going to aim for that GPA to be above 3.4...I WANT IT!!!! B+ he said..oh gosh! sociology is killing me. I don't even understand what prof is talking about..and i'm going to sit for my mid terms on tuesday..*sob sob*=(..cedric said it was easy..that he'll help me..which means he'll be studying it together with me...but who knows how well it will go?? sigh..CK was a science student too..so he's gonna aim for the same thing that i'm aiming for..i hope i'll be able to get what i want eventually..*prays hard*
dear lord..do you hear my prayer? i thank you for everything that you have given me..for that very special person that has appeared in my life. You know how much i've been going through lately. The problems, the unhappiness, the downfalls..all these dear lord, i felt you were there with me to pick me up each time i get hurt so deeply. I blame myself for everything that happened. I've been hearing so many negative things happening around my friends and many a times i question why you put it there for them. I'm sure you knew how they were to be feeling with all those unhappy situations happening in their lives. Yet dear lord, i know you placed every situation in our lives to teach us something. Each day, each situation, lord, you had planned it for us. My life lies in your hands. I know what lies ahead of me is the best you want for me. dear lord, it is the best gift i would ever have received. AMEN!(:
In his love i'll trust..
In his faith i'll conquer..
In his words i'll silently listen..
aBoUt LoVe..
9:03 PM.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
i'll promise you my life..
holding your love and promises true to my heart..
i'll treasure you till the end of time..
cuz
you're all i need
my love, my valentine..
aBoUt LoVe..
5:20 PM.
Friday, September 15, 2006
15th sep...9.15am...mEL officially got her freedom on the road..YAY!!*clap clap clap*
lets see...
2 pts - requiring additional reverse movement during reverse parking( thats because i had to redo the parking instead of allowing myself to HIT the kerb which will cost me 10 PTS..hehe)
4 pts - failing to confirm safety during the course of parking
2 pts - delay in moving off
2 pts - failing to check mirror b4 moving off..
yeap so there you go...do your maths & you'll get TEN points!!!!! yAy!!!! i don't have to treat someone to ben and jerry's anymore! muahaha(:
obviously uncle steven was very happy with my performance..hehe..gonna treat him soon..(: thanks thanks!! oH..he was saying.."SEE!! told you to keep checking your mirror before you move off and always confirm safety le..otherwise its only 4 pts.." wOw!! hahaha...no one can ever get 4 pts lar...somehow or other they'll try to mark you down in other areas de..
& i swear i wasn't paying attention during political science class today..prof was great! and he kept asking us to share our ideas...but somehow, i was like over excited about my freedom on the road that i forgot about paying attention to him speaking about INDIVIDUALISTS!! hahaha...anyway, after the break i decided i should pay attention..and i started shooting my hands up in the air like 3 or 4 times to answer his questions..woOHoO!! so happy with myself lar...this is the first time i've spoken so much in a class!! especially a soci class which i'm NOT familiar and i'm still very blur in!! muahaha(: participation for today?? FULL marks!!
aBoUt LoVe..
9:18 PM.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
its a wonder why we can get so happy just seeing the smiles on the faces of the kids you work with..
was down at the home today..the very first lesson for the ltb(: &..it was a success..teachers were very helpful & the kids were so cute! gosh! they really brightened up my day..
had driving..& that was the very first time i drove in the circuit..totally screwed up the whole course..i was so blur..and uncle steven kept yelling at me...totally forgot all my stuff..the parking..the balancing..and the direction changing..:(
but that email from him really cheered me up..thanks(:
oh yes! not forgetting..received a email from ian and he said that head TA was very happy with how our team worked..she liked our project..she liked our group logo!(: "i can see the A's coming" that was exactly what he said..
ck told me to scold that girl who was trying to impose her ideas on the whole group..it didn't piss me off lar...cuz wat she suggested was quite good..at least it was relevant to the whole meeting..i kept quiet when she said all those stuff because i'm not suppose to take charge..i agree it was a initiative on my part to be organising the meeting yesterday and got you people to email me the contact list cuz i felt that was the only way we could keep in contact. We ARE in the same class...but we dun recognise each other..thats what makes the meeting inpossible..so we needed someone to start collating something! deciding on the topic was a decision made by 4 people...it wasn't a general consensus..and if i hadn't done that, we wouldn't be able to "fight" for that topic which we wanted to do..
i feel its time for me to step back and just be a follower..its so tiring to just sit in a team and start leading the meeting..its draining on my part cuz it wasn't my responsibility to begin with :(
"the irresponsibilities of some people led to the defeat and failure of the whole team.."
aBoUt LoVe..
10:06 AM.
Monday, September 11, 2006
i am special..
only allowed to think positively..
not allowed to say anything thats negative..
"teambuilding means..TEAM-BUILD-IN
leadership means..LEAD-THE-SHIP"
oOoO...thats interesting...(:
*prof said, "great project! i like it..i like the art pieces..i like the group logo! but..maybe you should call in professional artists to help? they may help in someway.."
now..this is what i call team dynamics??
WHAT kind of TEAM dynamics do you see?? the presentation was great because of the work of a FEW people in the team...the others are just leeching on whosoever who's doing the job..isn't it a TEAM effort?? if so...then why can some people NOT attend meetings everytime we have one?? is this considered a responsible behaviour?? come on! Ian knows what has been going on..he knows we're putting up with it and still working on the project like as though it would be fine without you...but its the TEAM effort that prof is looking at...7 men team becomes 5-6 cuz some people are missing?? because some people are not being updated about what has been going on during the meetings?? because he/she didn't give any suggestions during the discussions?? eventually its your grades that suffers...NOT MINE!
& i feel you people should just trust us to do a good job tomorrow...coming up with a lesson plan is a great idea! its not that we do not want to do it...but it is because i personally feel we wouldn't follow according to the plan cuz we're working with disabled kids here! timings will change! they're DYSFUNCTIONAL!! not FUNCTIONAL!! so you can't FIX a specific time for them to DO things...especially since we're teaching them to paint!
it requires lots of patience and time to be working with these kids and putting a time frame to it will only hinder the process of interaction with them as well as the time for them to develop that creativity..
i see your point...that you're afraid we ain't able to complete the whole lesson within 1 hour...it is a short time...BUT if you expect us to complete so many things within that period we're given...i wouldn't say that its impossible until we have tried it out tomorrow..i'll try though..
can't believe this is happening...like WHY is melinda making a big fuss out of a small problem of coming up with a lesson plan??
you've got to understand that its because after I came up with what we were going to do for day one...then i said.."okie...so carry on...wat do you intend to do??" and she said.."huh?? but we have to wait and see where you all have left off wat..." GAWD!!! how pissed off can i get then?!?!?! i came up with the plan for 1st day and you didn't want to continue?? are you saying that we WOULDN'T be able to stick to the planned time?? THEN WHY in the FIRST PLACE did you get us to come up with it?!?!?!?!
this is seriously getting nowhere...every meeting, someone is bound to be drifting off somewhere into their la~la~land..somehow sometime, we will all be doing our own personal stuff cuz there is NO CONCRETE agenda for our meetings! what kinda DYNAMIC TEAM do you call that?!?!?!
:( utterly dissapointed in the team..its a failure that we have to act upon..its something that we must as a team sit down to talk about..WE MUST!
aBoUt LoVe..
9:49 PM.
Friday, September 08, 2006
its 9th sep tomorrow...the day for auditions...kinda dissapointed some people by deciding not to go for it but hmm...i'll say..."if i'm talented, i'll be scouted"(:
congrats to JY and pat for passing their driving!(: thanks for your luck too..haha..will keep it close to my side for friday!
&..chunyong owes me ben and jerrys..he failed his test..oh well..i wouldn't demand it from him lar..i'll just see how it goes for mine coming friday..*scared
2-3 days into not seeing dear..& i'm beginning to miss him more each day...just how am i going to survive for another 2 more days?? how??*sob sob
aBoUt LoVe..
11:11 PM.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
i'm sorry i played that prank on you..
it was a test of your love towards me. I agree i was taking a gamble. Like who knows what might happen when i told you all those stuff right? Now i know! i didn't make the wrong choice to do what i did. I didn't make the wrong choice to make my promises.
I made you cry. I cried..for you. Because i said, you loved me too much.
But i'm so touched by your actions..and whatever i told you last night came from the bottom of my heart. All i said was true..except for that when i said.."i'm not sure if i love you.." cuz i really do!
you believe me baby...i know you do! gonna miss you these few days..
gosh! its a test of our relationship yar?? *hugz hugz
aBoUt LoVe..
1:32 PM.
Monday, September 04, 2006
omg! what else can i say??
i'm just so fortunate to have him love me and to have him by my side..
i missed ya baby!~!
*oh & stop that thing about one boy 2 girls...ey...its 2 boys one girl!! i dunch care!(: muahaha..*huggz
aBoUt LoVe..
5:52 PM.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
aww..you're so sweet lar baby!(: *love you too..
great times spent in your company..
okie...& so...2 weeks of school has passed officially...like wOw! so FAST!! very soon it'll be week 5/6, which marks mid terms...then it'll be a study break and ta~da..final exams..wOoHoO!! after that, 5 modules conquered by mEL..lol..i can't wait for that day to come..hmm..
lotsa readings..and more readings stacking up on my desk..can't seem to get down to reading them...gosh! so many things to do..:(
driving test on 15th sep..had a bet with chunyong that whoever fails should treat the other party ben & jerrys...oh gawd! & he seems soOoO confident of himself cuz he's taking it at BBDC..HOW TO COMPARE?!?! ey! i'm taking it at uBi!! the place where qualified drivers pass their driving...muahahaha...just kidding(: all the best to you too!!
next week's gonna be a long and busy week..driving lessons.. readings.. presentation.. meetings.. tuition.. wedding preparations.. superstar auditions.. -sigh- & baby's going to camp!:( *sob sob..but its alright..its only for that few days..right??
superstar auditions is not closed doors...gawd! DAWN! are you going to join not??
aBoUt LoVe..
3:21 PM.
Friday, September 01, 2006
yes..i do..
so..believe it or not, mEL is officially attached to this really sweet and caring guy on 31st aug..
try bully me and he'll come after you..lol
that was also the night i first stepped into MOS cuz of the freshman bash..great experience..horrible headache and hangover...*gawd! i still have meeting and project later!:(
**jY!! so sorry..couldn't find you last night...there were like sOooo many people on the dance floor and the whole place was like so crowded..i drank quite abit so i left earlier..haha..will intro you to him soon..don't worry!(:
*my dad told me this.."please go and see a doc..i'm afraid it'll lead to something worse than just a cough.." yeap yeap..i hope it doesn't lead to pneumonia or wat..*touch wood!
aBoUt LoVe..
8:29 AM.
