it was small dawn's last day at office today ):
3 months ago, i was the only temp...till today, there were 2 other wonderful girls to keep me company as temps in the supposedly graveyard office..hehe..
she's been a great friend, great listener, great card printer & a superb entertainer!! Always saying.."ar?? ar?? ar??" forever cannot hear what we're talking about de..hehe..plus her "es~ther"..
OMG!! i'm soOoO going to miss you lar..-sigh-..
Thanks for being there to listen to my rants..& asking.."ey..where to eat later arh??" "wanna go bugis street to shop??" "I wanna go dorothy perkins" "suntec got midnight sale leh" "ey felice, where you buy this blouse arh??"
No more entertainment for us in office...no one to be crazy around in office..no one to talk to me about her bf..no one to listen to my rants..
How lucky am I to have known you..(: hehe..
don't forget our k~ing at bedok yar?? wOoHoOo..."baby don't go...don't go...how can I wake up tomorrow...it breaks my heart...if you don't love me no more.." WahaHaHa..OUR favourite song remember?? lol..(:
& till we meet again, just wanna say, take care my friend..have to keep in contact k...& no matter where you are, remember..*fedex! We live to deliver*..wahahahaha..they'll help us in everyway..=)
*I promise photos to be uploaded soon..hehe..i'm still waiting for those taken on agnes' camera..hehe..once collated i'm sure to pick the best of the best to post online (:..stay tuned!*
aBoUt LoVe..
9:40 PM.
Thursday, June 29, 2006
come SUPPORT PL at millenia walk if you drop by suntec or marina square for late night shopping for GSS..hehe...PL's putting up a 90 hour music marathon in celebration of ur 90th anniversary..From 7pm on 29th June to 1pm 3rd July..Step into marina square and you'll hear beautiful sounds of PL-lites..Even in wee hours of the night, you'd hear angelic sounds..(: 90 hours..no joke..at 3 am in the morning..there'll still be people singing!! so what are you waiting for?? Come down to marina square to support us!
aBoUt LoVe..
10:06 PM.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
they totally spoilt my day in office today...
not because I admit to what they say..but because they were really unreasonable..
like small dawn said..its not like we didn't do our work..EXCUSE ME! we did..just that you don't see it..& hellO!! if there isn't us, who would be attending to all the dings~ at the counter...who's going to print all the student cards and update the info for tr*ns*tl*nk...who's going to tie up the loose ends and do the filing?? come on! what you're seeing is just the surface of everything thats been happening day in day out of SA..
& because of that one complaint from you, ra~chel got it from her! how unreasonable can you people get?? You see what you see because SA has its door opened for anyone to just walk in and out freely..we don't have a card access system cuz we're customer service based..you think other departments don't have such people around?? okie...maybe they don't..that only goes to show how "cold" the office will seem...imagine stepping into a really quiet office where everyone's doing their own work quietly and no one's making any noise...so quiet that you can even hear a pin drop...WOW! i think thats not a office...its a graveyard!!
& yes! I admit that sometimes we can get out of hand and really LOL..but its human nature..we need to destress too..BUT we're not primary school kids who need you to say.."sHhHhHh!!! can you please talk softer??" we know our limits...its not like we scream in office and make a fool out of ourselves..we DON'T entertain...cuz we're human...we don't PLAY in office...we just joke around and make FRIENDS..are we not entitled to that?? are we denied of our human rights cuz we're working in that supposedly "cold" office aka graveyard??
we turned a graveyard to a circus?? wat joke??
we turned a graveyard to a PARADISE! a place where everyone would look forward to going to every morning..& leave the place with happy memories of the past...
I'm utterly dissapointed with whatever I heard today..totally unreasonable people they have in there..
aBoUt LoVe..
8:59 PM.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
today's kbox was FUN! at least i haven't had such a great time since a long time ago..(:
went to the hospital..and apparently i was kinda surprised at how much determination he has...for someone who's suffered and is already so old, still manages to stand up on his feet even after a stroke..
I was shocked..yet happy to know how fast he's been recovering...the good news brought to me, made me feel that god was with him all these while..the words of encouragement from his children aka my aunts and uncles...& of course not forgetting my parents, have been helping in everyway..thats what i call...true love...
& actually i'm pissed off...& i still am..at the world's stupidiest person..arGHhH!! i guess if you read on, you'll kinda figure out who that person is...then again, my friends are SMART people..so they'll figure it out really quickly..hehe..
she washed our bedsheets...hung it out...brought it in..& ta~da...my bolster case was GONE! guess why?? it flew downstairs..& how come?? because she didn't clip it properly to the bamboo pole so when she brought the pole in, *pOoF*...the bolster case just flew away!! WELL DONE!!! So i officially have no more bolster to use..see how st*pid she is?? & when it flew away, she saw it downstairs...but she didn't go down to pick it up..until my mum came home..which was like a LONG LONG LONG LONG time...then she told her...
& btw, i had to go from door to door knocking and asking if they'd seen some unfamiliar bolster case hanging on their bamboo poles...but sad to say...none of them saw it...so now the WHOLE block knows that i've lost my bolster case cuz it flew away...H-A-H-A..how funny can it get mans..
there goes my NEMO bedsheet set..no more bloster case..which means its incomplete..*dissapointed :'(
OMG!!!!!!! how st*pid can she get man?? & everytime she comes to our house, she's bound to BREAK something!! EY! we don't own everything in the world OK! & we're not rich! so stop breaking stuff, thinking that everything can be replaced...
so..i have no bolster to use for tonight...thanks to the worlds stupidiest person...
say i'm mean...but i don't care!! She's human...so she should understand how it feels when someone loses something of hers...WTH!!!
luckily i have my piggy to hug when i sleep....aRgHhHhhH!!!
*ANGRY!!!!!
aBoUt LoVe..
8:58 PM.
Friday, June 16, 2006
There are some moments in life, when one cannot continue walking alone. Sometimes we just feel like giving up, throwing it all away. Then there are moments when we feel lonely, when we look around and think about all other people who have found someone to walk with them, and wonder when that time in our lives will come. Yours have.
You and I have both come across such period / periods in our lives. You know we both love hard, steadfastly, against all odds, yet unreciprocated. Even as we struggle, question, face our inner demons, i'll ask that you continue to trust yourself. I know that isn't a to-be-taken-for-granted-fact, and though you may fall or be dissapointed, you'll always pick yourself up. And because I wouldn't have the chance to say it anymore, I just wanna say:
I'll always love you.
Continue to believe..and you'll see..
aBoUt LoVe..
10:01 PM.
Thursday, June 15, 2006
再见..我的王子..
虽然我已经告诉自己要把爱归零 ..
但或许祝福你们是让我下定决心的最好方法..
让我能够真正的把你留在过去的回忆里..
祝福你们永远幸福快乐..
(*change to unicode under 'view' then 'encoding' if you can't read..)
then again, i'm kinda enough to give a full translation of what i've written...*shakes head*..you people are just too engrossed in knowing about my life huh??
Goodbye my little prince..
Although I've told myself to reset my love to zero,
Maybe giving my blessings is the best way for my heart to be decided
to let me leave you in my memory of the past..
wishing the both of you eternal happiness & joy..
aBoUt LoVe..
9:15 PM.
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
who's going to understand how i'm feeling if you don't??
who's going to be there to listen to me rant when you cannot??
I have my reasons for being who I am
I have my reasons for being so quiet..
yet once i've figured out some stuff will I be able to let go and start blabbering rubbish again..
1st day you got to know melinda?? come on..she's that kinda girl who will just keep quiet when something's wrong...& you know it! so stop asking..
I realised the outcome of my appeal today...so naturally my spirits was down..
seeing big dawn during lunch, hearing that she's doing well, is something that brought joy to my heart...cuz at least i know my senior is happy somewhere someplace..
& when she said.."going to school already huh??" my heart sank..yet i thought i should just smile for that very moment..
i was dissapointed..& tears welled up in my eyes..
if you can't stand my attitude then don't talk to me..
don't you know that melinda will have attitude problem when she's unhappy or sad..or DISSAPOINTED??
wouldn't you do the same thing??
you wouldn't want people coming to you and start asking stupid questions that you wouldn't answer..
you wouldn't want people to be joking around you and expect you to be joking with them..
I'm scared..afraid of starting school though I really wish to go back soon..
I dread going to office everyday..
who will understand my fears but only you..
aBoUt LoVe..
9:44 PM.
i've sent my appeal..
they've received it..
& the outcome??
unsuccessful..
dissapointed I am..because there goes my dream to take up business management..they put it nicely..saying.."In the social science programme, you would still have opportunities to read courses in business, for example in doing a second major in a business-related area."
Nice to hear..yet piercing it felt..
YOU must have a plan for me..
I know you have..I believe..
tears finally fell..
aBoUt LoVe..
6:58 PM.
Monday, June 12, 2006
was really busy in office today..surprisingly i wasn't late for work..haha..left home later than usual..but i still reached on time...argHhh!! gonna leave home later tomorrow..wini's not around..so no one will care even if i go to work late..*oOps..
anywayz, hmm..was helping tay finish up some allocation of subjects..let me see...er..more than 10 classes?? 1A to 1V..excluding I..now now...how many is that?? plus each class has about 20+ students taking DIFFERENT majors..OMG! i did from morning till 4...luckily i managed to finish it on time otherwise i had to stay on to complete it..."its urgent! return it to me by today.." WAH! i'm not a super woman mans..but i'm at least smart enough to open a few of the same windows and do everything simultaneously..*oOps..hehe..hope everything was correct lar...didn't even have the chance to check it through..(:
something happened in office today..agnes finally blew her top..WoH! first time I see her fuming with anger..scared i was! though i wasn't the person who made her boil..haha..*cool down..(: everything will be fine when you don't care about that monkey..you can only pray hard that he doesn't disturb you again..hehe..(:
oh btw, he has no brains...and is seriously NOT a MAN! the files were left on the floor and my table was in such a mess cuz they came to tie something outside today..big rabbit told the contractors not to put them back cuz she thought i was doing some clearing of the personal files..so when i came back from lunch, everything was thrown everywhere..like an earthquake just happened in office or something...then i told big rabbit that i'll put it back..but she helped me in the end...& that stupid guy! knowing that big rabbit and I were wearing skirts, just sat there and continued doing his work lar...WTH!!! COME ON!
& i was already so busy..trying to finish up whatever tay had given me cuz it was URGENT! YET you keep telling me to do things for you..don't you have eyes to see?? I'M BUSY!! & my table was already in such a mess..stop adding somemore stuff on top!
the tuition agency called me up to ask if i was okie with anderline...of course i was! she's such a great student...just that she needs to put in alot of effort in remembering what i teach her...& hmm..i'm trying not to be mean and give her fewer questions...i want her to enjoy her hols before school starts...i know how a student feels to be having tuition lar...hehe(: & they asked if i were to take on another student...surprisingly i said YES though i don't even have time for my friends! gosh! its really going to tire me out...
Lotsa filing to do tomorrow...& 'chel has some stuff to send out too..i hope she'll only pass them to me on wednesday..otherwise i'll really faint..LOL
oh yesh..before i end, 'chel wanted to squeeze out something from me today...but i thought i should just keep it between dawn & i..& when agnes is less busy and when she knows more, then i'll tell her...
-there's no point in holding on to something that wouldn't last..-
*still waiting from an answer from that prestigious uni..will i end up being dissapointed??
aBoUt LoVe..
8:32 PM.
Saturday, June 10, 2006
it makes me feel good to know that you're 幸福..
it finally makes me give you up..
why do you have to keep your tears inside you??
just let it flow you emotional girl..
let the song bring you through..
"Sa Rang Hae Yo 只对你说..I Will Love You And Forever More..我答应"
*他说我是她的公主
他会永远保护我..
他不会再让我受到伤害
这是他对我的约定..
我相信你..*
aBoUt LoVe..
1:41 PM.
when did I become such a fool??
when did I learn to give up something I hold so dearly too so easily??
when did I learn to reject someone so flatly??
why did I turn them down when they asked me out shopping??
why is it that I would even give up a chance just to meet up with him??
why is it that she said that once I made my decision, nothing they say can falter it??
why is it that I'm isolating myself from them??
I seriously have my reasons..
I really hope tay will just sack me from work..
Yet yesterday, wini said something to me..
But I thought..
Even if they want me back to work for them I wouldn't..
Not because I don't like the people there..
But because I'm tired of working in the same environment..
People there are the BEST!
Yet because I'm selfish, I want to leave..
Its drawing me away from my friends..
Friends whom I've not been keeping in contact for a really long time..
I need time..
Time to get myself back into the mood of studying..
Time to get myself back on track..
To earn my friends back..
To go on a holiday and just forget everything that's been happening the past few months..
I've sent my appeal..
So I'm patiently waiting for their reply..
aBoUt LoVe..
10:18 AM.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Emptiness.
Describing it to be nothing, a lapse in the melancholy of matter.
Minding nothing, having nothing perturb it and hence, even if desire should provoke it so to arouse, alas, it cannot.
Wanting to know
Needing to show
These kept feelings
Held deep inside
The endless torrent
Washing over all In whom I confide
But who's this stranger
The faceless desire?
For in nothing I've told the entirety of TRUTH
An absence of knowledge
Whispers in sooth
Rumours I find
In every thought
In every mind
Spreading like flies
All in the call of Summer's lies
Everyone knows me
Or so they claim to believe
Their insatiable desire
To see themselves as wise.
Abandoning REALITY
to DECEPTION and LIES
I now recognize not
These solemn beings of abyss
The beloved stranger from before
Who no longer ceased to exist in my life
I stare at these beings
The people who care
Sitting upon doom
Falling from ruin's stair
In love I share
My life this poem declare..
aBoUt LoVe..
6:46 PM.
it was yet another day of life on this planet called earth..
yesterday was fun..went shopping with agnes aka ayumi..really shopped till i almost dropped...LOL..walked from bugis street to OG to raffles place to suntec to city link...Uh-HuH...but we didn't managed to walk city link and suntec lar..all thanks to me..*oOps..hehehe..sorry wor agnes..we'll go some other time ba..hehehe...& of course this time we can't forget small dawn yar?? (:
went to meet da after that to find her shoes for the photo shoot...its sOoOoO fast..like it was just last year that she said she was getting married..tried her gowns and chosen them like last month..then going to have her wedding shots taken at sentosa, botanical gardens and fullerton on coming monday...after that comes July when she's officially the owner of that house and of course our most awaited food tasting day...wOoOhOo...then august would be more of the nitigrity stuff like what songs she's going to choose...beautifying the video...just LOTS more stuff to be done...oh gosh! & i need to get my dress desperately..haha..mum was nagging at me to go look at the dresses and aim one that i like...hmm...i will lar...when i have the time to go shopping again, when i can find people to go with me to look at it lor...hehehe..
already preparing the letter of appeal for the transfer..& i really hope he'll take my appeal into consideration and not just disapprove of it..give me a chance & i'll prove it to you...I wanna apply for the scholarship...but there's just too many smart people vying for the same title...so i know where i stand & i wouldn't be too confident in applying for it..
more stuff coming up! & when am i going on holiday?? LOL..nothing's booked..nothing's confirmed..so i'm not sure if i'm going..hahahaha..
i'm sorry i wasn't by your side when you needed someone..
"If you wanna know
Why I can't let go
Let me explain to you
That every little dream comes true
With every little thing you do
It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this WAY
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do"
aBoUt LoVe..
12:30 PM.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i'm tired...
reached office super early today..like at 8.10 and i'm sitting in front of the computer..not wanting to do anything..so i decided to come bloggin...a really stupid choice 'cuz i dunnoe what i'm going to say...there's nothing special going on in my life currently..just that, i'm beginning to get really tired of working...so many people have already left their jobs..enjoying their holidays...hmm..people like del, JY...and ai zhu's going to work for about 9 more days and she's off too...i still have about a month or so to go...
how tiring can life get?? coming to office, working for 8 hours..plus lunch in between...then rushing home just to have dinner with my family...then watching TV, going online to blog, catching up with my friends..& i'm on my bed sleeping...the whole routine just continues for every weekday...
come sat and life's abit different...driving at 10...& i'm back home watching TV..oh wait...if people asks me out, of course i'll be out then..LOL..
sun?!?! oh gosh! supposed to be a family day..but i have tuition in the morning which drains me out high time..& i'm back home to have lunch..then i'm out again...driving...2 hours and i'm back home...
how interesting can melinda's life get when she's rather coop~ed up in her little home & her own lil' life??
i told them that even he were to take my life now, i wouldn't mind...cuz at least i know i'll be by his side..they said life holds no meaning for me...i beg to differ..(: cuz i haven't found the life partner God has sent to love me & accompany me..
*waiting
aBoUt LoVe..
8:30 AM.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Love is never lost.
If not reciprocated, it will flow back, soften and purify the heart.
Its better not to have met you in my dreams than to wake up and reach for hands that are not there.
Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
I never can understand what he's been thinking..read & read..but I was still confused..hmm..perhaps its not something that easy to understand..perhaps its just suppose to be that complicated..I tried..but I didn't figure anything..
haha..how stupid can I get right?? of course I wouldn't be able to understand what he's talking about..haven't been talking to him since a month ago? & even if we were in contact, we would just be talking about trivial stuff..do you think he'll tell you what he's thinking or feeling?? or even whats happening in his life??
emotions that i shouldn't be feeling even at this point in time..she said..YET, i'm feeling that way..
she said Iwas mad to be msging him and telling him to stay happy no matter what..that everything would just fall into place when you look in the positive lite..and that everything has its reasons for its happening..BUT I tot I did the right thing..somehow, seeing him sad..*oOPs..no..reading about him being sad puts me in weird emotions..
jealousy..dissapointment..sadness..
aBoUt LoVe..
9:17 PM.
Monday, June 05, 2006
can't seem to understand why my angel can take things so lightly...like hmm..both of us are always being compared to..& we both feel stressed..YET we're not the ones competing against each other..but people putting us together and doing it...how much emotional torture have you put us through?? so much that we feel its abit awkward for us to be talking as cousins when we meet up...like HELLO..we are suppose to be interacting...but i was keeping to myself most of the time..for fear that once i say something, someone else will be eavesdropping on our conversation and just say something that hurt both of us...thats what i hate...thats what i fear...
yeap no doubt i accepted SMU.. remember that NUS wanted you...its top 92 globally..heh heh...no joke wor..LOL...hmm...on your major, see what you really want ba...but must really bid high to get what you want..otherwise they can be real mean and throw you somewhere you don't like..(*touch wood)...
office was in a mess today...long queue at the counter...matric cards lying everywhere...papers and photos lying all at the counter...& i was sitting in office when i reached at 8.15(which was early)..until i felt..."hey..shouldn't i be helping to attend to the students outside??" hahaha...then i got out to attend..hmm...i took me a few minutes to figure that out lar..cuz i wasn't sure if i could handle the stuff they ask..hehe..but i managed somehow...its not based on experience i guess...its just stuff that i've heard here and there from my colleagues..yeap yeap(: a battle fought and won..YET i have a feeling the same thing's going to happen tomorrow..*oOps..pray hard yar??
was attending to this girl from CH*n* today and she screamed at me without first finding out the reason...wasn't in a good mood when i stepped into office today and yet i was screamed at unknowingly...WTH! get your facts right before you shout at me alrights...& excuse me! because my chinese wasn't as powerful as you, i felt inferior and didn't want to scream back alrights..can you imagine you spoke english to me?? OMG! i'll just shoot you back in your face! fancy coming to our office to say you haven't received your results when you changed your address and didn't tell us about it..WTH! who's fault is that?? OURS?? come on! & i was kind enough to talk to you nicely and not scream back at you saying that it was your duty to inform us about your change in address...we DIDn'T tell you to shift house WAT?!?!?!?! irritating..
aBoUt LoVe..
10:28 PM.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
OMG!! agnes did this..hehe..i'm so going to go back to office to print it out..hehehe..nice nice nice!(:
aBoUt LoVe..
11:32 PM.
i'm going to be real busy these coming months..with tuition plus driving..hmm..itz like every sat sun sat sun..no time to rest...so why am i working so hard?? hehe...its just to keep me occupied lar..& i wan my driving license soon..hehe..working till 14 july when my contract ends...not going to extend like they suggested...cuz i want time for myself..like taking a break and fly to somewhere somehow alone or with someone..LOL..just before i start school..yeap yeap..
when she called me that day to ask if i wanna take up the tuition offer i said yes like almost soOo readily..cuz i've been hiding at home for so many weekends and its high time i get my brains working..oh yes btw, she's helping me to source for another...& of course she'd most gladly offer me another student cuz she earns commision too...hahaha...so its a give and take lar...
so...my schedule's pack and i don't have the time to think about other things...& i'm glad i don't have to actually...only awaiting for admission to the Uni...and hmm...am still fretting over the appeal into business...-sigh-...i dun wanna sit on it...just want to get it done as soon as possible...but i'm afraid of the outcome...
thinking of applying for scholarship in SMU too..but looking at my results, i think i don't make the mark...so i'm going to drop the choice and just earn through tuition~ing...
& excuse me! I did WELL for my SAT..hehehe..so i'm rather happy with myself...LOL(: got the full report from the website and i was like WOW~ed! hehe..cuz i didn't know that 10hr of maths and english actually earned me satisfactory results for me to use to appeal into business..
enough of my updates these few days...where have all my friends gone?? too busy keeping up with your relationships that you forgot all about me?? haiyoh...bad bad friends i have...:(
aBoUt LoVe..
11:06 PM.
i found photos we took at charlene's farewell...hehehe...*oOps...was just clearing the photos in my folder and i found it..LOL..here it is..
aBoUt LoVe..
3:38 PM.
Friday, June 02, 2006
i hope you'll stop asking me why i chose SMU because i'm going to just list everything here..
firstly, YES i've been accepted into all the 3 unis..but i HAVE to make a choice..
not going into the other 2 unis cuz i know where i stand in this cohort...i'm soOoo not going to pit myself with sOooO many other people who are SMARTer than me..COME ON!
& i didn't pay $118 bucks for nothing...I sat for the SAT and I've gotten my results...its been sent to SMU and I'm going to use that to appeal into business...heh heh...(:
even if they don't accept me into the course that i want, i'll still remain in that uni..not because my sis graduated from there and has been psycho~ing me to go there..but because i've experienced the people there myself...
& i wouldn't have to bid for my major cuz there are only 3 to choose from even if i stay in social science...the 3?? psychology, political science and sociology...its not a variety..but it gives me the confident of getting the major that i want to specialise in...
you may say NTU's courses are also based on their majors already..but hey excuse me...i was give econs in NTU...& i don't wanna take that cuz i've spoken to experienced people and they said its a really dry topic...its either you can do or you can't...so i'm going to give up my place...
needless to say, everyone knows that you have to bid for your major in NUS arts and social science..competing against 700 over people for the major that i want is a NO WAY for me...there's no assurance that i'll get what i want...who knows...maybe many people are eyeing at doing psychology and i wouldn't get a chance to study it...in the end, i'd be thrown into some rubbish courses that will never do me any good...
the less important reason?? the distance..hehe..but that's nothing to me lar..
i wouldn't get to experience hostel life i know...but hmm..there's always something that you'll have to forgo if you want it big in life...
*congrats to my angel who's gotten into NUS(: hmm...i hope its the course that you've wanted lar...but its really *phew..a sigh of relief yar??
& hmm..before i end, there's something i wanna say to all prefects out there...to my juniors...
Count on us & prefects make it perfect..")
short and sweet but you'll will know what i mean..
aBoUt LoVe..
8:43 PM.
of the 6 months i've worked at that 'wonderful' company, 2 really GREAT people left..Perhaps its because they've found better jobs..higher pay..but i'd always wish them the best...well wishes to charlene and big dawn...may the road ahead of you be full of light and glimmer..aLL the best!*huggs
pics?? hmm...definitely..(:
hmm...these are big dawn's photos..hehe..er...as for charlene's photos..hmm...couldn't find a nice one...so i don't intend to put up any here..hehehe...*oOps..
updates the next time lar...i'm tired...have been real busy the whole day...though i cannot compare to small dawn and agnes...hehehe...will have to send the photos to them too..hehe..ciao!(:
aBoUt LoVe..
7:20 PM.
