my dEaR aNgEL...
she's always been there for me...my really good friend...one whom i can never find anywhere else..one who's been with me all this time..
many people have been receiving letters of acceptance since last month..some have not and are still waiting for theirs...some received rejection letters...some, got it from all the 3 unis...
it really makes me wonder why this world is so unfair...so cruel...its like...if you don't do well, you're not given a chance to fight for a place in the uni...in the course you want to study in..people choose you..you can't choose them..Yet once you do well..you're given all the choices..you choose the schools...the schools doesn't choose you..(get what I mean?? or is it really confusing??)
They look at grades. Who says they don't?? Every Uni may say they give each and everyone a chance...an opportunity to study what they want to study...They may all say that they don't exactly look at the grades...but in actual fact they do..LIARS THEY ARE!! Opportunities...YAR RIGHT!! where on earth did you give her that opportunity?? Yes! you called her down for interview...but till now..NOT a single acceptance letter has been sent..She didn't do well?? NO! She did well enough to be fighting for a place in the U...She's asking.."why is it that someone who did WORSE than her was given a place in some top notch uni and yet she doesn't.." Why is God putting her through so much torture and pain and sadness?? Asking her to wait and looking at her suffer in the hands of her friends cuz ALMOST ALL of them have already received letters of acceptance??
She's been an angel! & this is no way to treat her I would say..
Yet there's always a positive side to it. You haven't been sent rejection letters..means that you're being KIV~ed somewhere somehow...means they're considering you for a certain course..
I know you've been waiting...cuz everyone's been receiving letters & you haven't..I know you're afraid and fear to await the rejections...Yet you've always kept that smile on your face...looking really cheerful...like there's no burden being carried upon your shoulders...like you're someone who can take things lightly...Yet i can sometimes feel that you're keeping stuff from all of us...sometimes i feel like as though you want to cry it all out...but because you don't want people to symphatise with you, you keep it all within..you let it out on WORK WORK and more WORK..
& everyone wishes to have someone close by their side...someone who will love them and comfort them...Someone who loves them more than they do...You've found him...yet you don't know if he's the Him you've been looking for...you don't know if he's the one God has planned, to love you for the rest of your life...So i'd only say...stay as friends...you made the right decision...although it hurts for him, i'd sarcastically say..."i'd rather he get hurt than you.."
*sMiLeZ
I've always been wondering if you've been fine..like whether you're having a good time in army..whether you've recovered from your fever, your flu..whether your back injury has healed..was told that day that you were sick..& my heart ached..didn't dare tell anyone..even small dawn..she knows about the both of us..our story...told her while having lunch..and told her whenever memories strucked me..she said I should just let it go for the sake of my future and yours..she said it was difficult to maintain it as friends since we've already broke off..she told me to forget you..& everytime she tells me.."heh..there's this really cute guy outside at the counter...go take a look.." & i'll go..."nope! not interested.." she'll say.."heh come on lar..i know you're still thinking about him.." but i'll deny..Feelings have changed..& that I wouldn't defend..cuz i know it myself...but i can't seem to forget you..i know you wouldn't believe it if i say.."i still think of you"..& i wouldn't be selfish to be asking if you still think of me...cuz afterall,you're leading your own life and i'm leading mine..memories of times we've spent together make me cry..small dawn asked.."ey..so, is he now attached??" i said.."no" then she went on.."heh..maybe got chance can get back together wo.." but i said.."nope..no chance.." cuz i think i know you too well...once you've made your decision, you'll never change it..I wish you'd find another better girl..I really wished so...but deep down, i still hold hopes of getting back together..shameful of me! Stupid melinda..you're stupid..:'(
aBoUt LoVe..
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