i'm still deciding if i should coach..
taking up coaching means less time spent with my family..more time spent with baby..
yet it also means i get to learn in the process of coaching these kids. Its definitely not the money that i'm looking at..but the experience of working with kids and enabling them to fulfil what they want in life and to get them to love themselves for who they are, treasuring the people around them. Its that kind of satisfaction you will gain when you see the kids change within those days when you're with them..
actually, i have my reasons..it would be tough to not be feeling how i will be feeling when i see what i see..confusing?? its not for you to know anyway..but i guess baby will know what i'm talking about. Its not that i wouldn't trust you..but it would be very difficult on our part to be allowing the culture of the coaches to come between us. Thats the main problem thats forcing me to not send that email to her..=( As much as i want to coach, i guess i would have to break this barrier on my own in order to have the courage and faith to send it..
i know you would want me to go experience it myself..i remember the promise we made yesterday..
i'll think about it..i still have a few more days..
he said as long as i get a GPA of 3.4 this year and pass that optional stats waiver test, i'll be egligible for something that i want really badly! oh gosh! i'm going to aim for that GPA to be above 3.4...I WANT IT!!!! B+ he said..oh gosh! sociology is killing me. I don't even understand what prof is talking about..and i'm going to sit for my mid terms on tuesday..*sob sob*=(..cedric said it was easy..that he'll help me..which means he'll be studying it together with me...but who knows how well it will go?? sigh..CK was a science student too..so he's gonna aim for the same thing that i'm aiming for..i hope i'll be able to get what i want eventually..*prays hard*
dear lord..do you hear my prayer? i thank you for everything that you have given me..for that very special person that has appeared in my life. You know how much i've been going through lately. The problems, the unhappiness, the downfalls..all these dear lord, i felt you were there with me to pick me up each time i get hurt so deeply. I blame myself for everything that happened. I've been hearing so many negative things happening around my friends and many a times i question why you put it there for them. I'm sure you knew how they were to be feeling with all those unhappy situations happening in their lives. Yet dear lord, i know you placed every situation in our lives to teach us something. Each day, each situation, lord, you had planned it for us. My life lies in your hands. I know what lies ahead of me is the best you want for me. dear lord, it is the best gift i would ever have received. AMEN!(:
In his love i'll trust..
In his faith i'll conquer..
In his words i'll silently listen..
aBoUt LoVe..
9:03 PM.
