i'm back..
it was a fun-filled.. adventuresome.. thrilling.. exciting.. and relaxed trip..
YET
full of hurt..pain..and tears..
lets talk about the fun and exciting part first..
sat on the sickening space shot for the first time in my entire life..they keep you suspended in the air for 12 sec and drop you down like some crazy fool...so fast that you can't even scream your hearts out! wahaha..
then there was the smuggling into the casino..attempted soOo many times and finally..i managed to step in..yay yay yay!!! but i didn't like it in there..people just kept smoking and smoking..inside looks just like its packed with haze..& i played but lost...so it dampened my spirits even more..plus..that stupid flu that i was having..gosh! i was totally in NO mood to gamble!
had lotsa fun with kenneth too...that little boy...never fails to make me happy though he irritates me with his "why this why that" questions..hehe..i still love him! oh gosh!! talking about him now makes me miss him alot..he's just so cute!!
oH...plus...the food...the movie...the basketball games...the che*ating for free games...and everything else! it was all soOo fun!!!
and just when i tot this trip would be a really memorable one..it turned out to be true..memorable in the sense that it ended with a HUGE BANG (in the literal sense I mean) :(
till now i still fear the same scene that had happened yesterday..the screams and howling of words..the hurt and pain that we both felt within..that..i can say, was our third major quarrel..sometimes, i really wonder if it was my fault..and most of the time, i believe it to be cos reasons and specific events were quoted..
"i am who i am.."
"i am who i am too kelv..
so love me for me
just like i'm learning to love you for who you are..
let that devil lie dormant for as long as it can
and that angel live forever within you..
giving me a chance to work on what i have
giving us..a chance to work this together..
sometimes it hurts me with the words you say
little needles piercing into my heart like yesterday
sometimes i wonder if i should truly continue
loving a man like you..
yesterday's words told me you didn't know me deep enough
for you to say those words that make me tear like flood
stay strong don't cry i told myself
yet tears kept flowing down that aisle..
now that everything has been solved..
i guess that heart to heart talk really speaks lots
seeing the other couple being so loving
it gives me hope that life still gets moving
telling me you love me
with that look in your eyes..
makes me hurt even more
deep inside..
yesterday's events have become a history for me
but still remains as a nightmare in me
i pray i wish i hope
that you'll still love me like when we first began.."
aBoUt LoVe..
10:58 AM.
