i'm still learning how to appreciate..
after 2 years...and i still think i'm immature in handling relationships..
i thought i could be strong..but i still shattered..
i thought by saying my thoughts and feelings would make things better..
i thought i've learnt to appreciate things now..
but i was wrong..
i didn't think of him..
many things i don't understand..after some thoughts..then i realised..perhaps sometimes i should show it in action that i care..because i know deep down i really do..
but have i done that? or has baby been doing much more for me which i don't seem to appreciate and notice? have i been taking everything for granted?
saying thanks is something i learnt to do..
and practising it has never been much of a problem..
now its left with controlling of my temper..
something which has been haunting me since i was young..
thats me i realised..straightforward and shooting my mouth without thinking of the feelings of the other person..saying what comes to my mind..
reflector? prof are you sure thats me? i thought i raised this question about framing of our mind before doing the inventory...but you said it didn't matter! PURE nonsense! i don't see a reflector in me now :(
secure attachment?? prof, i'm beginning to query what you taught on friday...
finding a partner with secure attachment will lead to a happy marriage and a happy relationship?? prof, it seems darling baby isn't that happy at all..do you think i can conclude that you were right about my attachment type? or was it suppose to be insecure avoidant or insecure resistant or insecure disorganized?? perhaps its supposed to be insecure resistant attachment?? - seeking closeness but becomes angry, reject, push and hit, making a big fuss when being loved?
was it something to do with me? thats what i need to sit down alone to think about..
but for now, i know i'm still learning how to appreciate..
i want to be happy..i want to smile..
i want YOU to be happy..i want YOU to smile..
Thanks for all you've done for me..
aBoUt LoVe..
10:41 PM.
